Unforeseen

It’s the last day of January.  The month opened with such optimism and hope for the New Year, only to end with a silent, cold trepidation.   Last week, our dog passed away.  Today, a family friend lost his long battle with cancer.   A sudden death or a prolonged death – the sadness is […]

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Lighting the Darkness

We all grieve, but we express it differently.  I try to write or do something creative to help me make sense of what I’m feeling.  My mother is a Theravada Buddhist.  Myself?  I’m more of an observer than a believer or practitioner (maybe someday), but I’ve appreciated how other people practice their faith. The day […]

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The Hour of Passing

A cold rain is falling outside, creating puddles in the empty park across the street.  The weather will worsen; rain turning into snow, temperatures dropping. What a cold, wet, desolate day.  A day expected from winter – a day expected and appropriate for mourning. I don’t remember the moment of her passing, but remain haunted […]

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Monday Meditations

I am feeling old today, a bit worn down by life but I wanted to share two things that were on my mind. A quote and a song, each from different religious perspectives but sharing the same message about living life with purpose.  I hope that you’ve found it as I am still searching.   […]

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Stillness

Writing isn’t as easy as it once was before.  Mostly because I avoid the solitude and stillness needed for ideas and imagination to flourish.  I keep myself busy during the day with chores and organizing tasks, simple menial things. Movement and motion requires less thought and emotion, and while there are moments when I’m frozen […]

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The Eternal Riddle of Time

Time is a precarious thing.  Something we think we know, we think we have; like a fickle lover whose adoration one moment feeds and sustains your soul then obliterates your heart for amusement. For the bereaved, for those of us left behind, the grief is unbearable enough without having to grapple with this eternal riddle […]

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A Way Through Sadness

I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know where I am going. I know that it’s been a week since my dog fell ill, three days since her passing, and I am lost. I am lost in memories having no sense of time and I am so unsure of my reality. I am lost […]

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