Personal Environments

So far, I’ve been able to keep up with these daily blog posts.  However, it hasn’t been without challenges and consequences.  I’m usually in bed and asleep by nine and up at six, so staying up until midnight to blog and post left me absolutely exhausted.  So, I have to rethink my daily schedule and […]

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Understanding Grace

  As I’ve already mentioned, despite being raised with both Buddhist and Christian values, I don’t feel that I understand either religion very well. But this weekend, I’ve gained a better understanding of God’s grace. First a disclosure: I have rewritten this post so many times because it’s a long, complicated story about seeing someone […]

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Nevertheless

Today was a good day, and I started to write a post about it. However, it’s a long post and one that deserves proper attention. It’s a post about grace, more specifically understanding God’s grace. I’ve already mentioned that my mother is Buddhist, both my parents are, but as very young children, my siblings and […]

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Choosing to Suffer

The first Friday of February was freezing!  The snow came quickly this morning and pushed back all my plans for the day.  The little black dog and I stayed inside and kept ourselves busy; she was busy sleeping (she’s an old girl), and I took up suffering. Who volunteers to suffer?  Well, apparently me when […]

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Unforeseen

It’s the last day of January.  The month opened with such optimism and hope for the New Year, only to end with a silent, cold trepidation.   Last week, our dog passed away.  Today, a family friend lost his long battle with cancer.   A sudden death or a prolonged death – the sadness is […]

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Lighting the Darkness

We all grieve, but we express it differently.  I try to write or do something creative to help me make sense of what I’m feeling.  My mother is a Theravada Buddhist.  Myself?  I’m more of an observer than a believer or practitioner (maybe someday), but I’ve appreciated how other people practice their faith. The day […]

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The Hour of Passing

A cold rain is falling outside, creating puddles in the empty park across the street.  The weather will worsen; rain turning into snow, temperatures dropping. What a cold, wet, desolate day.  A day expected from winter – a day expected and appropriate for mourning. I don’t remember the moment of her passing, but remain haunted […]

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Monday Meditations

I am feeling old today, a bit worn down by life but I wanted to share two things that were on my mind. A quote and a song, each from different religious perspectives but sharing the same message about living life with purpose.  I hope that you’ve found it as I am still searching.   […]

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Stillness

Writing isn’t as easy as it once was before.  Mostly because I avoid the solitude and stillness needed for ideas and imagination to flourish.  I keep myself busy during the day with chores and organizing tasks, simple menial things. Movement and motion requires less thought and emotion, and while there are moments when I’m frozen […]

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The Eternal Riddle of Time

Time is a precarious thing.  Something we think we know, we think we have; like a fickle lover whose adoration one moment feeds and sustains your soul then obliterates your heart for amusement. For the bereaved, for those of us left behind, the grief is unbearable enough without having to grapple with this eternal riddle […]

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