Where They Went

It’s now been a month since Butter passed away.  And I will admit that I have lost a lot of sleep worrying about her soul.  I know that some people don’t believe that animals have souls, but whatever…it doesn’t change how I feel. I’ve already said that I struggle with my faith.  My Buddhist mother […]

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An Infinite Moment

One of the things that Buddhist mediation emphasizes is the acceptance of Impermanence, that everything changes, begins and ends, is created and destroyed.  When you first mediate, you open you mind and just let your thoughts wander, let feelings come and go – allow yourself just to be in that moment. But the moments of […]

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The Problem Why

I finally had lunch with my elderly neighbor on Valentine’s Day.  I had invited her out before, but she kept telling me that she’s going home tomorrow.  When she didn’t come home, we went to visit her at the assisted living facility.  And again, she tells us she’s going home tomorrow. She’s going home tomorrow […]

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The Why and How

Frederick Nietzsche once said, ‘He who has a why can endure any how.’  It’s a sentiment that’s been repeated by many people, and something I’ve been mediating on all day.  Though, I’ve slept most of the time (still sick) so I haven’t gathered my thoughts for a proper post on the subject. Knowing and having […]

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Cherishing the Present

We have two labs, 11 and 14.  The 11-year-old lab, Butter, passed away almost three weeks ago.    There are still days when I don’t want to get out of bed or do much of anything, but I have to manage those urges to check out and dwell in my sadness.  For my sake, but more […]

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The Cannons

We live less than five miles from Arlington National Cemetery, and every now then, usually between 6:30 am and 8 am, a booming pounding sound would reverberate through the house.  At first, we thought the sound was from the airport (3 miles from us) or some military super-secret jet (there’s lots of super-secret things in […]

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Choosing to Suffer

The first Friday of February was freezing!  The snow came quickly this morning and pushed back all my plans for the day.  The little black dog and I stayed inside and kept ourselves busy; she was busy sleeping (she’s an old girl), and I took up suffering. Who volunteers to suffer?  Well, apparently me when […]

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