An Infinite Moment

One of the things that Buddhist mediation emphasizes is the acceptance of Impermanence, that everything changes, begins and ends, is created and destroyed.  When you first mediate, you open you mind and just let your thoughts wander, let feelings come and go – allow yourself just to be in that moment. But the moments of […]

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The Cannons

We live less than five miles from Arlington National Cemetery, and every now then, usually between 6:30 am and 8 am, a booming pounding sound would reverberate through the house.  At first, we thought the sound was from the airport (3 miles from us) or some military super-secret jet (there’s lots of super-secret things in […]

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Unforeseen

It’s the last day of January.  The month opened with such optimism and hope for the New Year, only to end with a silent, cold trepidation.   Last week, our dog passed away.  Today, a family friend lost his long battle with cancer.   A sudden death or a prolonged death – the sadness is […]

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Lighting the Darkness

We all grieve, but we express it differently.  I try to write or do something creative to help me make sense of what I’m feeling.  My mother is a Theravada Buddhist.  Myself?  I’m more of an observer than a believer or practitioner (maybe someday), but I’ve appreciated how other people practice their faith. The day […]

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The Hour of Passing

A cold rain is falling outside, creating puddles in the empty park across the street.  The weather will worsen; rain turning into snow, temperatures dropping. What a cold, wet, desolate day.  A day expected from winter – a day expected and appropriate for mourning. I don’t remember the moment of her passing, but remain haunted […]

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Stillness

Writing isn’t as easy as it once was before.  Mostly because I avoid the solitude and stillness needed for ideas and imagination to flourish.  I keep myself busy during the day with chores and organizing tasks, simple menial things. Movement and motion requires less thought and emotion, and while there are moments when I’m frozen […]

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A Way Through Sadness

I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know where I am going. I know that it’s been a week since my dog fell ill, three days since her passing, and I am lost. I am lost in memories having no sense of time and I am so unsure of my reality. I am lost […]

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